It seems an annual ritual, much like the reporting of pitchers and 
catchers to spring training, or the sight of birds in a "v" formation 
heading south for the winter. I have now, on more than one occasion, 
heard myself mouth that entirely forgettable and utterly nonsensical 
phrase: "I can't believe how summer flew by this year.."
Most often my analysis is met with a knowing nod, a confirmation that somehow time has moved in
 a wholly unexpected manner, and the laws of nature are not as immutable
 as scholars have suggested. On occasion, I am given verbal assurances 
that this summer roared past with the speed of a seventeen year old 
driver.
Now I could understand this if I had recently 
moved to a locale where summer was actually nothing more than an abstract
 concept, where the only noticeable change in the seasons was that the 
thermal underwear went into hiding for a few weeks. But I have lived in 
the northeast of the US, in the same state, in the same county, and within the 
same 10 mile radius, for virtually my entire existence, now in its 
seventh decade. There are four distinct seasons here, and as far as I 
can tell, August still remains the month after July. How surprised could
 I actually be?
I have tried to reconstruct the events
 of the past several months in my mind. The real dilemma is that I seem 
to be staring at an almost blank canvas. Maybe the hands of the clock 
are moving so quickly because the space between the melting of the last 
snow and the impending fall foliage appears to have shrunken to the size
 of the head of a pin, unencumbered by memories of 
distinct events. I remember waking up one morning and looking out at the
 frozen ice on the Hudson River, and I know I am sitting here at this 
computer, but what happened to virtually everything in between?
I
 think, for us on the wrong side of the memory spectrum, time really 
does have a different feeling. I don't mean this in the sense that we 
recognize our mortality and that every tick of the clock (if any clocks 
still tick) brings us one instant closer to a very cold and dark winter,
 but rather in recognition of the fact that our minds have gotten too 
cluttered and we are now starting to discard rather than accumulate. And
 so, we have difficulty cramming in anything more into our overwhelmed 
craniums.
As I concentrate intently, images are 
starting to flash by.. I now recall a wedding I attended in late May,  
the sounds of James Taylor on July 4th, a bluegrass festival where a 
woman hula hooped for hours on end, and that trip to Alaska featuring 
the truly unforgettable sight of my friend standing over a mountain of 
bear poop on the sixth fairway.
I will try my best to 
temper my reflective instinct to mouth the lament that summer has passed
 by in less time than it took for you to wander down to this sentence. I
 know that the laws of physics are not subject to random fluctuations. I
 know that 24 hours still contains 1440 minutes and that each day has 
been filled with endless opportunities to be amazed, distressed, 
overjoyed or saddened. I know that September's looming presence only 
means that all of these events have touched down upon me over the course of the past months..
No,
 summer has not flown by this year, or in any other. Maybe for the 
young, those who now find themselves moving inexorably closer to the 
first day of returning to another school year, this season always ends prematurely. However, that is a lament related  solely to impending realities.
But
 until the day when the earth stops revolving around the sun, until the 
moment when democrats and republicans form one unified party, until the 
polar ice caps begin to melt (oh wait, I better not use that as an 
example), until nature and everything we know to be true is no longer, 
until that instant I must come to the irrefutable conclusion that summer
 did not move with any more rapidity this season than in the ones 
before.
 
 
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